Wednesday, October 15, 2008

something great

This noon, I woke up to one of my happiest YM conversations ever, to one of the happiest multiply journal entries ever, to one of the happiest souls I know at the moment. And in return, I think I am one of the happiest souls in the world at the moment.

I've always known how it feels to feel, and I'm guessing that somewhere along the way, I stopped giving importance to that. I've even wished once or twice to be numb, to be nothing, to be unaffected by things around me. Because things around me tend to step on me, to pierce, to hurt. But now that I think it over, I see that the beauty of feeling is in recovering from what was painful, from what was almost unbearable. The beauty is in the leap from immense torture and dysphoria to comfort and euphoria.

In the few months I've spent in my "new" environment, I've realized how irresponsible I've been with this whole feelings thing. I'm thankful, though, that the people in that environment opened my eyes to this. Now I know that I do not want to be numb, do not want to be nothing, do not want to be unaffected by things around me. Feeling... feeling is great. :D


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Good job :D

posted by biancaaafranca @ 12:35 PM